First up, I applied for a Twitch Partnership. This means I could have a "subscribe" button on my page and make a little bit of money while also being able to give more back to my viewers! This is the second time I applied and once again I was declined. Twitch didn't tell me exactly what I need to work on, but they did say to apply again in about 2-4 weeks if I feel passionate about it. So I decided instead of accepting this as a defeat (which I admit I kind of did the first time) that I will keep my momentum going and push even harder and try to apply again. I mentioned this on stream a few days ago. Everyone was very supportive and kind!! I think if we can just keep doing what we're doing maybe the stars will align.
Another thing I applied for was an ArenaNet Partnership. They offer a sponsorship program now for creators and since that's basically the only game I live and breathe for I figured it'd be a perfect fit for me. Well unfortunately they never replied or accepted me. I applied for this several weeks ago and still haven't heard back. I suppose I will try again because I feel like I'd be a great match for them. It's just hard when no one tells you what you are doing wrong! I see others that are about the same size/level as my site and channel with sponsorships. Maybe I'm just not active enough? Well I also won't let this bring me down. I gotta use the passion I have to propel forward and apply again!
Finally, I applied for a job in real life that's totally different from what I'm used to. It's a position I know I would excel at and in a field I'd love to grow in. I won't go into the details, but long story short all last year I applied for several different jobs (both in and out of the hair industry) and nothing seemed to click. So when this job popped up nearby I was very excited to apply! However, once again I haven't received a reply. I believe in myself and that I'm totally qualified for all that I'm seeking. So I just need to learn how to be more patient. Things don't happen overnight and doors don't magically open for you. Sometimes you gotta prove to the world what you are capable of.
Last year, I let little things bring me down pretty quickly. There were other battles I haven't mentioned, too. I'm trying my best to keep a positive outlook and change the direction of my feelings after facing a setback. It's a little unlike me to post or talk about these kind of things because I do try very hard to have a good attitude on social media. my blog, and now my stream. But you know what? Shit happens sometimes! Thank you Forest Gump for teaching me that. It's how you react to it that defines you. So I'm staying upbeat and looking forward to whatever comes my way.